Excerpt from: “The Unexpected Journey of Caring: The Transformation From Loved One to Caregiver” by Donna Thomson and Zachary White, PhD

Written by Donna Thomson

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A new caregiver will have many, many questions, but there are a few that are vital to ask in the early days: “Can I do this alone?” “Who will help me?” At first, identifying one friend or key ally who will promise to make personal support a priority will be a big first step toward positive action and healing in the caregiving family. Building a coordinated team of support will come later, but at first, securing a commitment of abiding friendship from a single support person is enough.

As days, weeks, and years pass, the caregiver is slowly transformed.

If the need for care grows incrementally, it may seem that at first, each helping task is perfectly doable. But taken together and over time, the burden of care may become overwhelming. This is especially true in the case of degenerative disease combined with the caregiver’s own aging and life or work responsibilities.

To survive long-term caring, a rearrangement of priorities is required, a coming to grips, a reconciliation of personal goals, a “settling in” to care. But sometimes there are natural barriers to making peace with caregiving. Caregivers may engage in a battle of priorities, culminating in making enemies of both work and home. They may crave multiple social connections and the consoling “noise” of an independent and bustling working life.

Does being “settled in” to a caring role represent liberation or captivity?

Being in the right place, doing the right thing is natural for young parents caring for their children. But what of an older parent caring for an adult child with disabilities? What about the kind of parental care that feels like a role reversal in the case of Alzheimer’s? At the start of a care journey, a caregiver might strive to finish caring tasks quickly in order to return to “normal” life. 

But with the passing of weeks and months spent in an intimate relationship with a loved one who is ill or infirm, time shifts, and the disorientation of the caregiver role is injected with routine that temporarily silences the chaos. Yet, amid the routine, ongoing tensions emerge that mark the caregiver role as infused with contradictory needs and desires.

On the one hand, a caregiver may stop wishing to be somewhere else. Being alone with a loved one can morph into a natural way to be. Then, a caregiver notices that the slowness and quiet of caring is in itself a presence, not an absence. Settling for the reduced ambitions of caring for a loved one opens a door to a life rich with humanity and meaning, but also a life that is difficult to explain to others—a life others say they admire but stop short of walking toward out of fear and misunderstanding.

Of course not everyone falls into a taxing but intimate rhythm of caring. If a loved one is suffering, the call to care can be a call to battle against pain and exhaustion. But in the absence of anguish, caring can become a quiet truce in a land that is foreign to most other people.

Here, there is the possibility of intimacy, of reflecting on hopes, dreams, and mortality. Here, there is the chance to be grateful for small joys and tender mercies. And with this enhanced connection, there is an unprecedented proximity to suffering, fear, grief, and doubt that few others know (or want to know). The true wisdom of caregiving lies in realizing that the meaning of care cannot be delayed until “it” is over because care changes us and our loved ones throughout the process. Caregivers can’t help but realize that their control of what happens is limited, but what they can affect is how they make sense of their experiences and how they use these stories to connect to others along the way. And even if these insights and wisdom are not present because home is too chaotic to experience stillness, caregivers will learn the meaning of forbearance—the essential ingredient in being able to proclaim with certainty, “I’m glad I stayed and did the right thing.” 

From The Unexpected Journey of Caring: The Transformation From Loved One to Caregiver by Donna Thomson and Zachary White, PhD with a foreword by Judy Woodruff. Rowman & Littlefield, 2019

Donna Thomson is a caregiver, author and family partner in health research. She is the co-author (with Zachary White, PhD) of The Unexpected Journey of Caring: The Transformation From Loved One to Caregiver and the author of The Four Walls of My Freedom: Lessons I’ve Learned From a Life of Caregiving

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